Behind the Lens. . . . .

Honestly, no matter what happens and how long we will still have to be apart, you will always be in my heart. To miss someone is something you can’t explain and being a painful consequence of love, it may even be harder to describe than love itself. To miss someone is the desire to be close, to see and touch the other person. It’s a wish to repeat certain moments, to relive situations that uplifted our souls. I needed to tell how much I am missing you today and how good it would make me feel to have your skin close to mine, to hold hands, to feel you breath and to look into your eyes. Simple as they may be, they can only come true when you are near. I hope it won’t be long before I can experience those pleasant feelings………

I just thank the fact that I finally have you in my life, enjoying your presence, your intimacy, the sweetness and delicacy of your gestures. You are everything I ever wanted in my life. You are everything I love and wanted to love. You give me this feeling of fulfillment like nothing else in the world can. I am sending you this letter with all my affection it is written with the soul intention of declaring my most pure and devoted love for you........

I'm simply hanging by a moment… waiting to see you again so you can hold me so tight that all else fades… I thought after I left you would fade away from my mind… but still… everyday I wake up dreaming of our time (just gazing you from afar)…. I will never forget you… I just have to tell you… share with you that sacred part of my inner secret life… the thoughts I think that everyone has but does not always say… I know that sometimes pride gets in the way of expressing emotions… I believe that is the cause of my reticence in telling you how I feel sometimes… that and the fact that passion in an extreme state can be scary… you almost just want to shut it away for fear that it will eventually destroy you… I think of my feelings… my love for you not with craving or with hope or even desire… but just with a kind of wonder that such things could be…

At this time in both of our lives… we are surrounded by possibilities of choice… open doors and wide horizons… which I know may come between us… But I also know and hope that they could eventually bring us together… with both of us being better people for the time we spent apart… And so for now I function between maybe and maybe not… It's a strange mixture of love and sex and sorrow and hope and longing and faith. And even though you are far away, you're all that I can see, I carry you with me through all my life and I miss you more than I can say. I love you no less than if you were right here now.

I love you with all that I am… all that I was and all that I will ever be… Please know that my love and I are inseparable and I would want it no other way and if time could express my love for you then its forever and a day… I can't wait to be with you… the day when I can feel your arms around me… see your smile… look in your eyes… feel your sweet touch… hear your perfect words and kiss your perfect lips…. The way I feel about you some people call crazy… some call it insane… but I call it TRUE LOVE….